Trigger warning: disordered eating, depression, drinking Today's blog is pretty straight forward, so if any of those things are triggers for you, please click out of the blog. Here is a video of Jenna Marbles making a bed for her dog out of soap. What if I told you, dear reader, that we have an intrinsic… Continue reading It’s really fucking simple.
Sorry, I've been out. Or rather, I've been in. Inside the lucid chaos that is my psyche. I have learned that as I near age 30, a baby by all accounts, I still bear witness to some horrific things. Life is hard. And the trials and tribulations never stop. It is an endless cycle of what once… Continue reading Lines in the sand
Hello blog world. I wish I could come to you with joy tonight and shine a light on my health updates and journey, but life isn't filtered through rose colored glasses. Life is raw, real, and can be very painful at times. This is where I am today. In pain. Navigating the torrential waters of… Continue reading Adoptee stuff no one talks about…
January is quickly coming to an end. It's gone by pretty quickly, hasn't it! I know so many people who set goals for themselves and then who stopped short and decided to quit trying. Here's the thing, it's better to fuck shit up and fail than it is to not try at all. A lot of… Continue reading Let’s talk about motivation.
The year is 1994 and I am a mere six years old. Riding in the back seat of Mom's van with the sliding door, a song comes on the radio. The guitars blare and the drums thrum and this voice... the powerful soulful voice of Dolores O'Riordan envelops my soul. My heart soars, as I… Continue reading Linger
If you have never seen the movie called "The Family Stone," I highly recommend it. It is my all time favorite holiday movie, because of the chaos that is family and the emotional context that is portrayed in nearly every scene. We see Meredith (Sarah Jessica Parker), a high strung career woman initially fail to… Continue reading Smoke and mirrors in the living room
November is National Adoption Awareness Month. The fall is usually a time of self reflection for me. The year is coming to an end, and with all the holidays and focus on family, it's hard to not get introspective about my own adoption story. ALL thoughts, feelings, stories and scenarios are purely my own and are not a… Continue reading Adapting and Adoption
"If all the women who have been sexually harassed or assaulted wrote 'Me too.' as a status, we might give people a sense of the magnitude of the problem.” I saw the status going around online. And I felt a big stone drop into my stomach. My throat was dry and I sort of froze.… Continue reading Me, too.
I read a quote online that really resonated with what I have been experiencing. "I said to my body softly, 'I want to be your friend.' It took a long breath and replied, 'I have been waiting my whole life for this." Anxiety is a very strange thing, and can manifest itself in different ways. It's… Continue reading Landed myself in the ER
I debated a lot about writing this post, but this is my life and this is my blog. It is cathartic and therapeutic to write. After crying all night long, and dealing with a very upset stomach due to my anxiety, talking with friends and family... I decided, I'm just going to bite the bullet… Continue reading My husband’s boots…